From the day I went go KL, back from KL to Penang and finally back to Kampar...
I don't feel happy even for a single second...
I can't even get to smile or laugh from the bottom of my heart.
I bet no one want to have a 21st birthday like this,
Yea, It was past tense, why do I care so much??
Of cause I care!
Because of this birthday,
I found the truths that I had been search for some time..
1st, from last time till now, I m just a fool for trusting them so much
I thought if I treat them with my heart, they will treat the same way back to me..
However they don't..
2nd, I thought he wouldn't forget my birthday and I can spend my birthday eve with him, even just dinner.. And I thought every things before.
But in the end of the day, I enjoyed the disappointment very well with a washing face by tears.
Finally I know that, to him, I am just nothing..
Even he know I am angry for what he did(did nothing)..
He didn't even bother about that, ignore it and just leave it there... UNTIL TODAY! didn't even a msg or call...
Yea, again the unlimited free one is bullshit again!
Lavy, when only you will wake up??
He treat u like a tool only! Now you're a useless tool to him already...
Why you want to love this kind of guy since the earlier day you promise yourself you won't fall to a young kid like him?
Things he know to do are keep hurting you and piercing you heart like no tomorrow...
He may have treat you better sometime, but that is because he was in good mood...
Why did you trust your ex-colleagues and confirmed that they will treat you like the way you treat them??? Never let you guard down anymore please... Not everyone deserved to gain your trust and care.
Don't let the one-way love that you did towards him blind your own eyes...
If ever he ask to be forgiven, I'll tell him, please wait me reborn again then I'll forgive you all..
And I swear I don't want to be as soft and kind as ever again, no more mercy to you all... I hate to feel ever get hurt and tons of disappointment from you guys again.
And I don't think I got the "authority" or my energy to love you anymore, Mr. Busy man...
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