Well, yesterday too tired until forget to update bloggie~_~'''
Once again, tiring day for me again. Working today but quite funny. Very relax today and even joking around with my supervisor @.@'
1st thing is the car park ticket~_~ paying extra for the car park and plan to press the ticket again which is forbidden to do so.
2nd thing is went to 2nd car park but both of us din bring a single cent with us at all. Luckily that guard allow us to pay it later... if not really shame lo=_='''
Haiz... but today still abit sad for me... No matter how great I am, I cant compare myself to tat girl. She dare to do something which is I don't dare to. And yet I feel hurt once again. Although my words was joking about both of them yet don't know why I feel like hurting my own heart. I trying my best to give up anyway.
Sry dear, I don't know whether you really love me or just comfort me by those words. Even those are only sweet words or you are joking with me but I feel warm when I read them. I know you are helping me to forget about him. He is the one hurting me but you are the one keep supporting me and comfort me behind. I knew i shouldn't place my feeling on him because he had someone he love(maybe?) but I just cant control my feeling. And if you really love me, I just can say Sry to you becos I keep mention him in front of you. Really sry if i hurt you...
You are great. Maybe even better than him( for sure i think). I don't know why I will love him and not you. He has alot of bad attitudes, every time when we having conversation, for sure some of his words will hurt me because I don't think he respect me at all ( maybe to him, I'm just a tool? or maybe he just treat his "special" 1 nicely only!). But I believed that he treat me like a tool more, when happy then smile and talk nicely to me, when angry then shout at me; when nothings then insult me. I really stupid to love this kind of fellow. Stupid!!!>.<
Hope that Everything will have final results before I going to Kampar at May. I truly hope... But without any notice, will he know about all this?I wondering... If he know it, and if the answer is negative, please don't mention it to me. I rather my feeling will gone by following the winds, would flows to somewhere that I don't even know where it is....
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