Another boring day I had. Whole day rot at home doing nothing. However, I really enjoy my mum's cooking. Maybe I have been months never have them due to work and outing. I feel the dishes today was delicious. Today is god damn hot, I was sweating whole afternoon. It's like heaven when I took a cold drink from refrigerator and drink it lol...
Someone ask me : "when you want to find yourself a BF?" today. I really kind of hard to answer it. Well, It's not my will for don't want BF that love me now, but it's out of my control too. I mean I can't get a "idol" BF as I wished right? Of cause, in my bottom of my heart... I miss him... The one so close yet so hard for me to express and get him. It's getting worst now since we less outing and so on... Well, I admit that now my feel towards him is not as strong as before, maybe I'm on my way to give up to this no-happy-ending's love? But I still miss him everyday too. Doubting what he's doing and etc...
Well, thanks to yeenli because she still remember that I need helps for my Kampar's stuff. I already found my "house" there and thank for concern me about it... I'm worrying about the U and Kampar's things. I really scare for being alone. Even now, I scare for being alone and bored. If you want me to drive and go somewhere alone... I feel kind of afraid and strange, I need someone to accompany everytime I go out. My weakness is getting "outstanding" huh... But serious, I hate "loneliness", hate to be abandon or hate doing somethings alone too... I'm so useless..=.=''
Haiz... When go to Kampar, I'm sure I will be alone too...will i survive? T__T I will be very appreciate if my friends will sms me or call me more frequently when I gone to the "boring town". I pleased...
Someone ask me : "when you want to find yourself a BF?" today. I really kind of hard to answer it. Well, It's not my will for don't want BF that love me now, but it's out of my control too. I mean I can't get a "idol" BF as I wished right? Of cause, in my bottom of my heart... I miss him... The one so close yet so hard for me to express and get him. It's getting worst now since we less outing and so on... Well, I admit that now my feel towards him is not as strong as before, maybe I'm on my way to give up to this no-happy-ending's love? But I still miss him everyday too. Doubting what he's doing and etc...
Well, thanks to yeenli because she still remember that I need helps for my Kampar's stuff. I already found my "house" there and thank for concern me about it... I'm worrying about the U and Kampar's things. I really scare for being alone. Even now, I scare for being alone and bored. If you want me to drive and go somewhere alone... I feel kind of afraid and strange, I need someone to accompany everytime I go out. My weakness is getting "outstanding" huh... But serious, I hate "loneliness", hate to be abandon or hate doing somethings alone too... I'm so useless..=.=''
Haiz... When go to Kampar, I'm sure I will be alone too...will i survive? T__T I will be very appreciate if my friends will sms me or call me more frequently when I gone to the "boring town". I pleased...
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