Today was totally disappointed. Because I wanna play bowling but Penang Bowl there was full. One-stop's one was under renovation. Sigh... However, I quite happy with today's. Hanging out with Joyce, Mr.K, Louis and his gf and an unknown funny guy was fun. Especially when we were at GasOline which is located at the new Times Square there.
However, today he did mention somethings I dislike. And I felt that, I was being glad too early. I shouldn't think that I was on the victory section when I just won and defeated one. Well, another one is auto-disqualify~. Today, I realize that I shouldn't be like the way now. Because no matter how hard I try to avoid those unneccessary person appearing around us, it will only resulted as a winner for a short period of time. As one gone, and new one will appear again. Or worst one is the old one still exist and became sources to get on my nerves. It's a endless fight. Why?? Simple, because I'm not attractive enough for him. I am not pretty or clever too. So it already show that I'm not his cup of tea for sure I think.
Every problems I had or having, I definately got the confidences to settle them but not this 1. It bugged me few months already. If I'm not his cup of tea, then why he acting like I still got hope? Sigh, I really don't know. I don't even know what I had wrote about today in this blog. Everythings was so messy and idle. Or maybe I should just appreciate that I was able get to know him in my entire life? But I just don't want it to be like this!!!! I was so close, yet feel like so far away from him!
For now, what I can do is... Learn how to accept the truth and learn how to forget plus give up... Which were the lessons I failed to learn since the day I get to know him...and them....
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